tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79721716892029408652024-03-13T15:40:25.228-04:00the other side of the pillowinner feelings of a young academicC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.comBlogger42125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-65509755940707694482010-06-20T23:10:00.001-04:002010-06-20T23:10:17.984-04:00<object style="height: 344px; width: 425px"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/jupPVPTaqDo"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/jupPVPTaqDo" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" width="425" height="344"></embed></object> for amberC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-63967142184507212432010-06-20T23:05:00.001-04:002010-06-20T23:05:17.299-04:00<object width="640" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/krMpx1Y2pl8&color1=0xb1b1b1&color2=0xd0d0d0&hl=en_US&feature=player_detailpage&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/krMpx1Y2pl8&color1=0xb1b1b1&color2=0xd0d0d0&hl=en_US&feature=player_detailpage&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" width="640" height="385"></embed></object>C.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-52566836040235963292009-09-21T02:05:00.001-04:002009-09-21T02:05:50.268-04:00Crazy. How can I be a liar?? Makes no sense to me. I definitely was forthcoming and told what occured. Yes I did have certain intentions but they changed after a pivotal conversation between us. You knew the things that happened. I'm sorry you had to see the words of a late night conversation but I can't change the past. I'm not an asshole & definitely not a liar. <br>Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-34960277410348217682009-09-19T15:27:00.003-04:002009-09-19T15:32:02.549-04:00there's nothing one can do to change the past. That's why it's the past; it cannot be augmented. I just have come to understand this fact, and feel it is critical in the maturation process. One must understand what to do after a momentous occasion in order to become a more mature person. Personally, I feel that I can use forgiveness as my biggest tool to move forward. Seeing an event as a paper cut rather than a tumor is a great way to look at it. A paper cut will hurt sometimes, but only for a short while. People must understand these "paper cuts" are easy to get over and do no require too much time. On the other hand, tumors are life threatening and potentially untreatable. In order to properly diagnose the situation, whether tumor or paper cut, one must identify the severity of the pain and make sure that they handle it accordingly. Then and only then will the "wound" be healed properly and the correct steps can be taken to moving forward in life<div><br /></div><div>-Mr Solo Dolo</div>C.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-70256468342065034172009-09-19T08:47:00.001-04:002009-09-19T08:47:14.546-04:00I am who I am. There's nothing I can do to change that. Sorry. All I can do is work on being the best me I can be. Of course there are some areas I fall short in but just know there are some in which I excel. I hope the areas I'm not "astute" in don't deter you from being with me. I hate feeling like this & constantly thinking about this shit but there's nothing else I can do about it. Writing is my only solace when certain situations arise. I'm fuckin self conscience as fuck now and it's not a good feeling. I went from feeling comfortable in my own skin to wishin I was in someone else's. I love you, and don't think there's too many out there who love you like I do. Just stay with me & we can make what we have flourish. <p>-Mr Solo Dolo<br>Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-87299186268510611552009-09-18T23:03:00.001-04:002009-09-18T23:03:04.490-04:00Why can't things be simple? I feel that as "adults" we college students tend to overcomplicate the simple things. It probably is because we aren't mature enough to handle certain situations. But, it could also be because we over dramatize things and make them gallon size issues when their really an oz. Personally, I pray that all my friends around me can find this simplicity which I try and lead my life by. It will definitely make things in life so much better<br>Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-42012900725036045482009-09-18T00:41:00.001-04:002009-09-18T00:41:12.512-04:00I just felt like writing. After a night of push ups & sit ups it just feels right to release mentally as well as physically. I didn't wanna talk to anyone about anything so writing is my next outlet. Listening to "Man On The Moon: The End Of Day" is truly an unbelievable experience and I recommend it to anyone who loves music. This album is really making me think about who I really am. Not putting on a facade of what people expect, but just me. I may be lame, whack, etc but in the end I guess it's just me. <p>Love ME or leave me ALONE...<br>Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-80141656821265270212009-06-24T00:42:00.002-04:002009-06-24T00:48:07.456-04:001st 2 days...of the rest of my lifeThis has truly been the best 2 days i could have asked for to start the program. the kids are truly receptive and beyond smart. no discipline issues, only minor talking, and at least 80% class involvement. i really just want the kids to lose that fear of being wrong and gain the fear of not expressing themselves. i feel its one of the major fears that prevents kids from becoming even better students because they think they'll be ridiculed for being wrong. the truth is someone else was thinking the same thing so by TRYING you're just being helpful. I even received a nice eval today from the Dean of Faculty and it'll be my personal goal to strive to upkeep that same high regard throughout the program. i want nothing but success for the kids and it's going to be my vendetta to lead them in that direction...<br /><br />L<span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">isten</span><br />A<span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">sk</span><br />R<span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">espect</span><br />T<span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">ry</span><br />A<span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">SK AGAIN!!!</span>C.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-4705097056132590322009-06-24T00:39:00.001-04:002009-06-24T00:39:40.407-04:0042+so it’s a little over 6 weeks now<br />and everyday I have this frown<br />upon my face because I know<br />it’s one more day where I cant see your glow<br />but , I know once we breathe the same air<br />it’ll be me who takes you there<br />to that place you’ve longed to be<br />for oh so long<br />that place that is a playlist of your favorite songs<br />I happily like to call it “Euphoria”<br /><br />in this place there are no sad faces,<br />for all frowns are turned upside down<br />it’s one of the most desired places<br />and you will be the one who wears the crown<br />I’ll call you my queen, to whom I give my all<br />for if you misstep, it’ll be I who breaks that fall<br /><br />I know I may be ahead of myself<br />because all this promise doesn’t ensure wealth<br />but who am I not to dream<br />I don’t wanna be considered a fiend<br />but…<br />this moment it feels so close<br />yet, far far away<br />it’ll surely be a dose<br />of pure, unconcentrated ecsta-say<br /><br />Then, I can say it’s you I got<br />[oops, my fault] I meant possess<br />where all the events in this plot<br />will be worth this emotional duress<br /><br />All in 42+…C.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-18560869180236929942009-06-06T21:11:00.004-04:002009-06-06T21:30:35.410-04:00consumedlike jordans on any saturday, or yeezy's on the 1st weekend of june, april and may, I feel consumed. i cant necessarily understand why, but it's as if everything surrounding me has some ironic connection to you. its as if my mind is constantly creating metaphors and similes from my daily actions in order to keep a steady stream of wonderful images of you flowing through my mind. my brain is the highway and every car from every maker seems to be you. whether benz, bmw, or beetle they all resemble you. like the girl at the walmart who just got the checks for her 4 kids, my cart is overflowing and these are not things such as cereal, milk, eggs and cheese; i'm talkin conversations, txts, bbm, and skype convos. i cant seem to have enough of you. my metabolism must be insanely fast because all of this intake does nothing to hinder my figure. i automatically divulge of one round of the aforementioned grocery list and thirst, no desire, no need, NO covet another before i become empty. i'm not one for obesity, so as long as the effects don't show i guess i can continue to be as greedy as i please...<br /><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0); font-weight: bold;">:) </span><span style="font-weight: bold;">+ </span></span><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >clock</span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"> = </span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" ><3</span>C.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-11390131493784979072009-06-05T22:18:00.001-04:002009-06-05T22:18:53.607-04:00Quality Over QuantityIt felt sooo great to see my aunts, granma and granda all in the same house. When u throw in the fact my dad was there too, it was a truly memorable evening. Just 1;30 mins, the amount of time doesn't do it justice. Quality over quantity is usually true & this time it definitely held up :-)<br>Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-66111152264822833012009-06-05T15:02:00.001-04:002009-06-05T15:02:32.579-04:00Sports TalkSo the lake show aka black mamba and the boys did it like I previously stated they would. Now I didn't know they would utter a complete and utter ass whoopin but hey, when kobe's on and the D is swarming what is a team to do??
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<br>Next up is a little MLB chatter. I feel sorry for the fans in pittsburgh where their pirates haven't had a winning season since b bonds was jumping over walls in 3 rivers stadium. They just recently traded the most effective if not best player CF nate mcclouth. I hear boycott talk up in west PA and I'm all for it. Best of luck pirate fans
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<br>My man fed aka roger federer stormed back today from a 1-2 deficit against 5 seed johan del potro. After nadal was upset by soderling it was critical that fed take this opportunity by the hands and after a previous 5 setter against tommy haas, fed looked shy early in this match but rebounded like a champion. Best of luck to fed as he tries to tie pete sampras' 14 majors on sunday at roland garros. I love the soderling story, but I'm going for greatness in this one.
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<br>That's all for sports talk right now. Look out for the nightly recap later.
<br>Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-47916265080810133802009-06-05T09:31:00.001-04:002009-06-05T09:31:36.536-04:00Pit-PatIt knocks upon my window<br>Sometimes like a burglar<br>And others, like a good friend<br>Regardless of its pretense, I can't let it in<br>It must stay outside, because it keeps me calm<br>I feel a certain peace of mind<br>And a calm that doesn't happen all the time<br>Yet, its a shame it can only come around ever so often<br>Because it truly makes the pain go away like an apple a day<br>Pit-pat is the melodious rhythm I hear on the AC downstairs<br>This beat calms my thoughts and hides my fears<br>I know it will do more harm than good<br>And I love the way that its non-biased as it hits the suburbs and the hood<br>I wish I could be like the rain drops to which I listen<br>They seem so at peace just doing a simple duty<br>Which is to help me sleep better and gain a sense of clarity<p>Pit...pat..pit...pat keeps my heartbeat steady & type<br>Thus, I never, ever have to deal with fright<p>Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-82525562261320252732009-06-05T08:24:00.001-04:002009-06-05T08:24:22.800-04:00Damn...There's something that is kinda crazy. How can something occur and then there be a delayed reaction. I know I'm far from perfect but telling me I messed up after the fact doesn't have the same impact as doing it in the moment. I hate upsetting people but when I don't get stopped in my tracks, all I can say is "damn..." when I hear about it later<br>Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-33111664682671644922009-06-05T07:21:00.001-04:002009-06-05T07:21:55.174-04:00HmmmJust wanted to see if this email thhing worked<br>Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-68344849640862052152009-06-04T16:21:00.005-04:002009-06-04T16:21:10.997-04:00the day on the right track and the last 2.5 hrs went by like a breeze. I even got to joke around with some kids in high school. LolC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-17991690369045502482009-06-04T16:21:00.003-04:002009-06-04T16:21:07.115-04:00then on the day went ok and it really peaked when my godmother got me a foot long 1/2 chicken 1/2 philly steak sub from zero's. This sub set the rest ofC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-41172849923820619202009-06-04T16:21:00.001-04:002009-06-04T16:21:02.140-04:00r some reason. Then I decided I needed a pick-me-up so I went and got a delicious brownie from the stand in the lobby and it was well worth the $1. FromC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-74719571589971633542009-06-04T16:20:00.001-04:002009-06-04T16:20:57.916-04:00Sooo work started off in the worst way possible. I felt stupid tired when I woke up and then when I got to work I figured out that my ear was bleeding foC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-82166694588581175402009-06-04T01:19:00.002-04:002009-06-04T01:37:48.990-04:00numero cuatroi think its time mr kobe bean bryant aka unstoppable bka BLACK MAMBA gets his 4th ring. i'm tired of people giving him the short end of the stick on the "Great Debate" saying he needs shaq, and not understanding his true greatness. the ability to impact on both ends of the court, facilitate the offense, score, lead his team, and defend the best player all make kobe the #2 SG of all time [ESPN agrees too]. just know that orlando WILL NOT make 10 3's a game and Dwight Howard will actually have to play post D this series. Lewis has to guard Gasol in the post so he'll be tired and If Kobe gets his 26-33 it's going to be scary because he's passing the ball much better. I cant wait until the matchups unfold<br /><br />LA IN 6C.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-16224298645253327822009-06-03T21:08:00.002-04:002009-06-03T21:15:18.750-04:00who knows...i just felt the need to press these fingers upon the keys on this weird, yet wonderful evening. 2.5 hr nap, nice dinner, great jokes with fam and the solitude i always desire. yet, something...or someone is missing. who is it, who knows...? all i know is that i would love to be with someone in this time slot. it's what i have become accustomed to so it's something i expect on a regular basis. maybe...just maybe, i need nights like these to get rid of my dependence upon the opposite sex, but who's to say that dependence is a bad thing? i just know it's what i want...VAorAL??? they both make me beyond happy for different reasons but i know i'll only have one and i have figured out who it is. the choice is actually pretty obvious with no disrespect to the other. its definitely going to be __. Thought i would give it away, hell naw! lol but in time the one whom it is will definitely figure it out if they haven't already. distance is a bitch, but it makes the heart grow fonder and the adversity it brings builds character....[i WISH i had my XBOX 360]C.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-55802525071805572882009-05-26T00:40:00.002-04:002009-05-26T00:43:37.473-04:00a good listenhere is a five song set that is sure to be a great listen if there is some special person in your life you can't stop thinking about, OR you just wanna listen to some great slow jams.<br /><br />1.her heart- anthony hamilton<br /><br />2.beautiful surprise- india.arie<br /><br />3.halo- beyonce<br /><br />4.notebook- chrisette michelle<br /><br />5.do you feel me - anthony hamilton<br /><br />believe me, these songs shall not disappoint and will have all of your thoughts focused on that special somebody =]C.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-59035263306094533022009-05-23T10:29:00.002-04:002009-05-23T10:34:59.242-04:00[false] realitynever would i want to truly lead another astray. it's nothing that is an intentional plot in order to see grief, hurt and despair on the face on someone whom I care about. the way i am is the way i am only because it is who i am. am i wrong for being me? i know change is necessary, but i feel that you have to start with baby steps. opening up is nothing that i've ever considered before and now i can do it with no regrets. progress, right? i believe it is. just know that they way i feel should not be critiqued. the thoughts i have cannot be seen as black or white, but rather a beautiful rainbow with a large, glowing spectrum of radiant colors. simple, no. complex, no. somewhere in between, yes. thus, try and understand why and what i do. know my motivations and don't try and assume them. satisfaction on one level is not equal to satisfaction upon another. "honesty is key, trust is necessary & without them everything is rubble" -CW4C.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-65417655834109905972009-04-18T01:06:00.002-04:002009-04-18T01:10:24.060-04:00the end..it was great<br />happy moments<br />sad times<br />encouragement<br />arguing<br />love<br />disgust<br />anger<br />passion<br />deep feelings<br />a little resentment<br />but all love in the end...<br /><br />that sums up what we were and it was a great ride....i'll never forget it on [you]<br />the things we went through cant be duplicated in any way and will forever hold a special place in my heart. sorry i wasnt ready for all you could be but i had to be honest and do what was best for me...i'll always be hereC.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7972171689202940865.post-79460157373107810322009-04-07T02:21:00.001-04:002009-04-07T02:23:26.817-04:00productivityit's about that time to end on a STRONG note. these classes dont appear to be "difficult" per say but they do pose a few issues. I hope that in these last 20 odd days of class i don't mess up what i built first semester and finish with anything less than a 3.85 for the year. If I do that then I will definitely be on my way to a spot in PBK [Phi Beta Kappa]C.W.IVhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14170489611382661500noreply@blogger.com0